Mar 21, 2009

.:Wretch:.

lalala so now, ive also made a wretch account
i might not update too often, but you will soon notice the idfferent styles
this is more of my personal thoughts
the other one is more on the surface--a bouncy cheerful girl
basically, your typical hyper girl in high school = =
so yea.
check it out:
Click Me~!!

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]

Mar 19, 2009

This feeling...

Its like im worth nothing
Its like i shouldnt have been born
Its like i dont belong here
Its like im better off dead
Its like the feeling of the air in my hair
Its like the feeling of exhilaration when you jump
Its like the feeling much better than what i feel right now
So just step on the ledge and let everything go
The feeling of flying, even if for only a few seconds before i die would make up for everything
There are only a few things holding me back
What is it like?
I definitely wont be going to Heaven, suicide is breaking one of the 10 commandments
I don't feel like going to Hell
So i wonder if they have music in Limbo?
Or maybe my ipod would just be wasted away in this world worn away by time
The stillness of the air
The feeling of being so alone, so truly alone
Would i go insane from this sensation?

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]

Mar 15, 2009

!Sunset Glow!

i shout out loud but only that unanswerable sunset is burning bright
the sun rises, the sun sets, i become saddened by the sunset glow
the moon rises, the moon sets, i become dull too, as time passes by

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]

.:Shattered:.

i don't have a heart
i guess i lost it a long time ago
now i feel nothing for this world
no attachments
so lets just live the best, and maybe
i can feel a flicker of satisfaction before i die
because
my heart has been broken numerous times
i've decided to lock my feelings away
that is my fail proof plan
of keeping my poor heart safe
because
all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put even humpty dumpty back together again
much less, my shattered heart.
so just let me be
and go your own way
don't think that i'm the only person in this world
for you
so please
don't chain yourself to me
i don't want to walk away
with this guilt dragging me to the bottom of the pool
because it will just slow me down
and i am afraid that one day
the past will catch up with me
and i won't be able to stand...anymore.

i don't want to be bound by anything
i don't want to be chained to this world
i want to fly into the sky
i want to fly towards my dream
lose all attachments
so you can truly be free
let nobody keep you
from what you really want
be like a stray cat
nobody can control you
you direct your own life
taking and giving as you choose
so you can survive
its impossible to be tamed...
so lets just leave it that way
because i belong to no one

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]

Mar 7, 2009

I've Got A Pain In My Sawdust

lovely lyrics inspired from CSI: The miniature killer

Verse 1:
A little bisque doll and a little rag doll /
And a dolly imported from France /
Were sitting one day on the shelf of the store /
With a doll that could wind up and dance /
When all of a sudden, the shopkeeper heard /
A scream that rang out thro' the store /
And this was the plaint of the little bisque doll /
That made such an awful uproar
Chorus:
I've got a pain in my sawdust /
That's what's the matter with me /
Something is wrong with my little inside/
I'm just as sick as can be /
Don't let me faint, someone get me a fan /
Someone else run for the medicine man /
Ev'ryone hurry as fast as you can /
I've got a pain in my sawdust
Verse 2:
They took her away in a hospital van /
And the whole town was filled with the blues /
For ev'ryone thought it was quite an odd thing /
And the papers all printed the news /
The surgeons looked wise and they all shook their heads /
And asked her just where she was sick /
"I think it's 'appendi-sawdust'!", she exclaimed /
"And won't you please do something quick?"
Chorus Repeat
Verse 3:
Oh, sad was the day for the little bisque doll /
For they cut all her stitches away /
and found the seat of the terrible ache /
"'Twas a delicate task," they all say /
For none of the surgeons had ever before /
Performed on a dolly's inside /
They tried to re-stuff her but didn't know how /
And this was her wail as she died
Chorus Repeat (spoken, expressively)
"Funeral March" bridge
Sung:
She had a pain in her sawdust.

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]

Smile like Broken Glass

She feels so distant, so apart from this world
While the everybody is laughing, she is silently crying
If you ever ask, she will answer with that smile
That smile like broken glass
Don't touch her, or you'll bleed
You'll be sucked into that black abyss
Its a whole different dimension
Don't try to understand it
Just pity her and let her be
She's on the outside looking in.

-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]