Like the dead doll lying in the corner of your mind.
Im wasted away
The long forgotten memories
Its all in the past
So am I the only one who hasnt moved on yet?
You say everyone has changed so much
But has it ever occured to you
that you are the person that has changed the most?
I should be saying that
Its not fair
How come you can act so lost
How come nobody looks at you with disgust when you say that
How come Im the person everybody cant hear
How come Im the person in the corner
How come you can complain about your freedom when you have so much more than me?
How come people notice you not me?
How come people still listen to you- no matter how much more morbid you are than me?
How come I have to try so hard to fit in?
How come-
Im going off topic?
anyways
what I mean is-
my two closest friends
have gotten boy friends
and even though I understand that you can't always talk to me 24/7, but
please, Im a person and I still need people to talk to me
I still need friends
I still need someone to talk to
I still need
Its all a lie.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Jan 20, 2009
Jan 6, 2009
Year 09'
Well, ladies and gentleman,
Finally, another year has come and gone. Another year of my life has flown across my eyes. Before I realized it, year 2009 will be rocking the stage for 365 more days. I'm all grown up. High school and worried about exams, PSAT, SAT, not to mention colleges. However, I feel alien to this world suddenly. Everything is so unfamiliar, I don't even know who I am anymore. So many things have changed...By the way, congratulations on Josie for her first relationship, and congratulations to Jackie for maintaining such a great relationship. Wish you both the best.
And then there is me.
Everything is in the past and I think its all about my personality...its just not me...and I don't know how to become me again. My grades are failing. My friends don't really feel like friends, just a circle of people I hang with by instinct and treat nicely. My parents fight often and pressure me constantly about my college and GPA...It feels like a completely different universe out there. It is literally turning over a fresh new leaf. Just...not as pretty as a 'fresh new leaf' should be.
Somehow, I have a bad feeling about 2009. Yea, I know. It's high school, man!! Everything is so much more exciting!!! *insert crazily happy smiley face* You get to have more freedom!! AND. you get to have boyfriends!! *insert yet another crazily happy smiley face*
Yea, right. As if I could afford to bother about that. I don't even like anyone now, how 'bout that!?
Let's just say for the time being that. I won't be applying for a Taiwan university because of my horrible chinese. I'll leave the rest up to your brain-power.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Finally, another year has come and gone. Another year of my life has flown across my eyes. Before I realized it, year 2009 will be rocking the stage for 365 more days. I'm all grown up. High school and worried about exams, PSAT, SAT, not to mention colleges. However, I feel alien to this world suddenly. Everything is so unfamiliar, I don't even know who I am anymore. So many things have changed...By the way, congratulations on Josie for her first relationship, and congratulations to Jackie for maintaining such a great relationship. Wish you both the best.
And then there is me.
Everything is in the past and I think its all about my personality...its just not me...and I don't know how to become me again. My grades are failing. My friends don't really feel like friends, just a circle of people I hang with by instinct and treat nicely. My parents fight often and pressure me constantly about my college and GPA...It feels like a completely different universe out there. It is literally turning over a fresh new leaf. Just...not as pretty as a 'fresh new leaf' should be.
Somehow, I have a bad feeling about 2009. Yea, I know. It's high school, man!! Everything is so much more exciting!!! *insert crazily happy smiley face* You get to have more freedom!! AND. you get to have boyfriends!! *insert yet another crazily happy smiley face*
Yea, right. As if I could afford to bother about that. I don't even like anyone now, how 'bout that!?
Let's just say for the time being that. I won't be applying for a Taiwan university because of my horrible chinese. I'll leave the rest up to your brain-power.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
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