And so the sun sets again at the end of the day
The world sleeps it's worries away
And no matter what you say
Things will always stay that way
So just give up
Let go
Don't think about it again
Time is ticking to the final hour
Where your hopes and dreams crumble
This is your last chance
To make everything alright
Wipe your tears away
It's no use to cry
Shoulders back
Head held high
Walk towards the future
Never looking back at--
Whatever made you mad
Whatever made you sad
Whatever made you regret
And live your life to the fullest
Another random drabble by moi because i just don't have anything to do...= = *sigh*
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
May 18, 2009
Mar 21, 2009
.:Wretch:.
lalala so now, ive also made a wretch account
i might not update too often, but you will soon notice the idfferent styles
this is more of my personal thoughts
the other one is more on the surface--a bouncy cheerful girl
basically, your typical hyper girl in high school = =
so yea.
check it out:
Click Me~!!
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
i might not update too often, but you will soon notice the idfferent styles
this is more of my personal thoughts
the other one is more on the surface--a bouncy cheerful girl
basically, your typical hyper girl in high school = =
so yea.
check it out:
Click Me~!!
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Mar 19, 2009
This feeling...
Its like im worth nothing
Its like i shouldnt have been born
Its like i dont belong here
Its like im better off dead
Its like the feeling of the air in my hair
Its like the feeling of exhilaration when you jump
Its like the feeling much better than what i feel right now
So just step on the ledge and let everything go
The feeling of flying, even if for only a few seconds before i die would make up for everything
There are only a few things holding me back
What is it like?
I definitely wont be going to Heaven, suicide is breaking one of the 10 commandments
I don't feel like going to Hell
So i wonder if they have music in Limbo?
Or maybe my ipod would just be wasted away in this world worn away by time
The stillness of the air
The feeling of being so alone, so truly alone
Would i go insane from this sensation?
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Its like i shouldnt have been born
Its like i dont belong here
Its like im better off dead
Its like the feeling of the air in my hair
Its like the feeling of exhilaration when you jump
Its like the feeling much better than what i feel right now
So just step on the ledge and let everything go
The feeling of flying, even if for only a few seconds before i die would make up for everything
There are only a few things holding me back
What is it like?
I definitely wont be going to Heaven, suicide is breaking one of the 10 commandments
I don't feel like going to Hell
So i wonder if they have music in Limbo?
Or maybe my ipod would just be wasted away in this world worn away by time
The stillness of the air
The feeling of being so alone, so truly alone
Would i go insane from this sensation?
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Mar 15, 2009
!Sunset Glow!
i shout out loud but only that unanswerable sunset is burning bright
the sun rises, the sun sets, i become saddened by the sunset glow
the moon rises, the moon sets, i become dull too, as time passes by
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
the sun rises, the sun sets, i become saddened by the sunset glow
the moon rises, the moon sets, i become dull too, as time passes by
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
.:Shattered:.
i don't have a heart
i guess i lost it a long time ago
now i feel nothing for this world
no attachments
so lets just live the best, and maybe
i can feel a flicker of satisfaction before i die
because
my heart has been broken numerous times
i've decided to lock my feelings away
that is my fail proof plan
of keeping my poor heart safe
because
all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put even humpty dumpty back together again
much less, my shattered heart.
so just let me be
and go your own way
don't think that i'm the only person in this world
for you
so please
don't chain yourself to me
i don't want to walk away
with this guilt dragging me to the bottom of the pool
because it will just slow me down
and i am afraid that one day
the past will catch up with me
and i won't be able to stand...anymore.
i don't want to be bound by anything
i don't want to be chained to this world
i want to fly into the sky
i want to fly towards my dream
lose all attachments
so you can truly be free
let nobody keep you
from what you really want
be like a stray cat
nobody can control you
you direct your own life
taking and giving as you choose
so you can survive
its impossible to be tamed...
so lets just leave it that way
because i belong to no one
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
i guess i lost it a long time ago
now i feel nothing for this world
no attachments
so lets just live the best, and maybe
i can feel a flicker of satisfaction before i die
because
my heart has been broken numerous times
i've decided to lock my feelings away
that is my fail proof plan
of keeping my poor heart safe
because
all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put even humpty dumpty back together again
much less, my shattered heart.
so just let me be
and go your own way
don't think that i'm the only person in this world
for you
so please
don't chain yourself to me
i don't want to walk away
with this guilt dragging me to the bottom of the pool
because it will just slow me down
and i am afraid that one day
the past will catch up with me
and i won't be able to stand...anymore.
i don't want to be bound by anything
i don't want to be chained to this world
i want to fly into the sky
i want to fly towards my dream
lose all attachments
so you can truly be free
let nobody keep you
from what you really want
be like a stray cat
nobody can control you
you direct your own life
taking and giving as you choose
so you can survive
its impossible to be tamed...
so lets just leave it that way
because i belong to no one
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Mar 7, 2009
I've Got A Pain In My Sawdust
lovely lyrics inspired from CSI: The miniature killer
Verse 1:
A little bisque doll and a little rag doll /
And a dolly imported from France /
Were sitting one day on the shelf of the store /
With a doll that could wind up and dance /
When all of a sudden, the shopkeeper heard /
A scream that rang out thro' the store /
And this was the plaint of the little bisque doll /
That made such an awful uproar
Chorus:
I've got a pain in my sawdust /
That's what's the matter with me /
Something is wrong with my little inside/
I'm just as sick as can be /
Don't let me faint, someone get me a fan /
Someone else run for the medicine man /
Ev'ryone hurry as fast as you can /
I've got a pain in my sawdust
Verse 2:
They took her away in a hospital van /
And the whole town was filled with the blues /
For ev'ryone thought it was quite an odd thing /
And the papers all printed the news /
The surgeons looked wise and they all shook their heads /
And asked her just where she was sick /
"I think it's 'appendi-sawdust'!", she exclaimed /
"And won't you please do something quick?"
Chorus Repeat
Verse 3:
Oh, sad was the day for the little bisque doll /
For they cut all her stitches away /
and found the seat of the terrible ache /
"'Twas a delicate task," they all say /
For none of the surgeons had ever before /
Performed on a dolly's inside /
They tried to re-stuff her but didn't know how /
And this was her wail as she died
Chorus Repeat (spoken, expressively)
"Funeral March" bridge
Sung:
She had a pain in her sawdust.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Verse 1:
A little bisque doll and a little rag doll /
And a dolly imported from France /
Were sitting one day on the shelf of the store /
With a doll that could wind up and dance /
When all of a sudden, the shopkeeper heard /
A scream that rang out thro' the store /
And this was the plaint of the little bisque doll /
That made such an awful uproar
Chorus:
I've got a pain in my sawdust /
That's what's the matter with me /
Something is wrong with my little inside/
I'm just as sick as can be /
Don't let me faint, someone get me a fan /
Someone else run for the medicine man /
Ev'ryone hurry as fast as you can /
I've got a pain in my sawdust
Verse 2:
They took her away in a hospital van /
And the whole town was filled with the blues /
For ev'ryone thought it was quite an odd thing /
And the papers all printed the news /
The surgeons looked wise and they all shook their heads /
And asked her just where she was sick /
"I think it's 'appendi-sawdust'!", she exclaimed /
"And won't you please do something quick?"
Chorus Repeat
Verse 3:
Oh, sad was the day for the little bisque doll /
For they cut all her stitches away /
and found the seat of the terrible ache /
"'Twas a delicate task," they all say /
For none of the surgeons had ever before /
Performed on a dolly's inside /
They tried to re-stuff her but didn't know how /
And this was her wail as she died
Chorus Repeat (spoken, expressively)
"Funeral March" bridge
Sung:
She had a pain in her sawdust.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Smile like Broken Glass
She feels so distant, so apart from this world
While the everybody is laughing, she is silently crying
If you ever ask, she will answer with that smile
That smile like broken glass
Don't touch her, or you'll bleed
You'll be sucked into that black abyss
Its a whole different dimension
Don't try to understand it
Just pity her and let her be
She's on the outside looking in.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
While the everybody is laughing, she is silently crying
If you ever ask, she will answer with that smile
That smile like broken glass
Don't touch her, or you'll bleed
You'll be sucked into that black abyss
Its a whole different dimension
Don't try to understand it
Just pity her and let her be
She's on the outside looking in.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Jan 20, 2009
Dead Doll
Like the dead doll lying in the corner of your mind.
Im wasted away
The long forgotten memories
Its all in the past
So am I the only one who hasnt moved on yet?
You say everyone has changed so much
But has it ever occured to you
that you are the person that has changed the most?
I should be saying that
Its not fair
How come you can act so lost
How come nobody looks at you with disgust when you say that
How come Im the person everybody cant hear
How come Im the person in the corner
How come you can complain about your freedom when you have so much more than me?
How come people notice you not me?
How come people still listen to you- no matter how much more morbid you are than me?
How come I have to try so hard to fit in?
How come-
Im going off topic?
anyways
what I mean is-
my two closest friends
have gotten boy friends
and even though I understand that you can't always talk to me 24/7, but
please, Im a person and I still need people to talk to me
I still need friends
I still need someone to talk to
I still need
Its all a lie.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Im wasted away
The long forgotten memories
Its all in the past
So am I the only one who hasnt moved on yet?
You say everyone has changed so much
But has it ever occured to you
that you are the person that has changed the most?
I should be saying that
Its not fair
How come you can act so lost
How come nobody looks at you with disgust when you say that
How come Im the person everybody cant hear
How come Im the person in the corner
How come you can complain about your freedom when you have so much more than me?
How come people notice you not me?
How come people still listen to you- no matter how much more morbid you are than me?
How come I have to try so hard to fit in?
How come-
Im going off topic?
anyways
what I mean is-
my two closest friends
have gotten boy friends
and even though I understand that you can't always talk to me 24/7, but
please, Im a person and I still need people to talk to me
I still need friends
I still need someone to talk to
I still need
Its all a lie.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Jan 6, 2009
Year 09'
Well, ladies and gentleman,
Finally, another year has come and gone. Another year of my life has flown across my eyes. Before I realized it, year 2009 will be rocking the stage for 365 more days. I'm all grown up. High school and worried about exams, PSAT, SAT, not to mention colleges. However, I feel alien to this world suddenly. Everything is so unfamiliar, I don't even know who I am anymore. So many things have changed...By the way, congratulations on Josie for her first relationship, and congratulations to Jackie for maintaining such a great relationship. Wish you both the best.
And then there is me.
Everything is in the past and I think its all about my personality...its just not me...and I don't know how to become me again. My grades are failing. My friends don't really feel like friends, just a circle of people I hang with by instinct and treat nicely. My parents fight often and pressure me constantly about my college and GPA...It feels like a completely different universe out there. It is literally turning over a fresh new leaf. Just...not as pretty as a 'fresh new leaf' should be.
Somehow, I have a bad feeling about 2009. Yea, I know. It's high school, man!! Everything is so much more exciting!!! *insert crazily happy smiley face* You get to have more freedom!! AND. you get to have boyfriends!! *insert yet another crazily happy smiley face*
Yea, right. As if I could afford to bother about that. I don't even like anyone now, how 'bout that!?
Let's just say for the time being that. I won't be applying for a Taiwan university because of my horrible chinese. I'll leave the rest up to your brain-power.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
Finally, another year has come and gone. Another year of my life has flown across my eyes. Before I realized it, year 2009 will be rocking the stage for 365 more days. I'm all grown up. High school and worried about exams, PSAT, SAT, not to mention colleges. However, I feel alien to this world suddenly. Everything is so unfamiliar, I don't even know who I am anymore. So many things have changed...By the way, congratulations on Josie for her first relationship, and congratulations to Jackie for maintaining such a great relationship. Wish you both the best.
And then there is me.
Everything is in the past and I think its all about my personality...its just not me...and I don't know how to become me again. My grades are failing. My friends don't really feel like friends, just a circle of people I hang with by instinct and treat nicely. My parents fight often and pressure me constantly about my college and GPA...It feels like a completely different universe out there. It is literally turning over a fresh new leaf. Just...not as pretty as a 'fresh new leaf' should be.
Somehow, I have a bad feeling about 2009. Yea, I know. It's high school, man!! Everything is so much more exciting!!! *insert crazily happy smiley face* You get to have more freedom!! AND. you get to have boyfriends!! *insert yet another crazily happy smiley face*
Yea, right. As if I could afford to bother about that. I don't even like anyone now, how 'bout that!?
Let's just say for the time being that. I won't be applying for a Taiwan university because of my horrible chinese. I'll leave the rest up to your brain-power.
-Tainted
[GD+TOP:scream (ay) to that high sky (eh) to this wide world (eh) DO YOU REMEMBER]-Remember by Big Bang
DO YOU REMEMBER::THE TIMES WE'VE LAUGHED, THE TEARS WE'VE SHED, THE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, WASTED AWAY.[Tainted]
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